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Motherhood Journey: My Next Big Obsession

 

 Motherhood Journey: My Next Big Obsession

My journey to motherhood has been filled with a range of emotions. From the moment I found out I was pregnant to the moment I saw my newborn baby.  #Motherhood

There’s ain't no hood like motherhood.

My life was forever changed on August 19, 2022. I recently became a mother after giving birth to a baby boy. His first cry, his first sight, and the hug we shared later were all rewarding. There are no words strong enough to describe the emotion I felt the day after holding my baby in my arms for the first time. I was aware that I was holding a star; it was love at first sight. In fact, I was intently watching him from a distance while they were cleaning him, and there was immense joy and relief in bringing him safely into this world. That feeling will stay with me for the rest of my life. I fell completely in love with my baby immediately after birth. I was in the happiest moment of my life, crying with contentment, and I was so grateful to the universe. My baby was kept in the NICU for the first 24 hours for observation, in the same motherhood maternity center, and I was starving to death to hold him; my empty bed was, making me unhappy. He made me wait for 24 hours, which felt like an eternity for a new mother. And the moment he arrived, oh my goodness! My tiny, wrapped little bundle of joy, he literally took my breath away. My heart was racing, like a butterfly flapping its wings. I almost had a crush on him and couldn't stop staring at him. I spent hours watching him and loved having him next to me. The smell and touch of my new born made me feel so close to him, and the sense of bonding in this way left me speechless. May be that’s the real meaning of motherhood. Also, because of some motherly hormones, I was wide awake for the first four days, as if I didn't want this "Neomama" episode to end. The best part is that he reciprocates in the same way, he loves me too.

Motherhood and Milestones.

Regardless of how well you've prepared yourself for parenthood, you may still find yourself surprised. It was very overwhelming at first, with a wide range of emotions ranging from complete exhaustion to total elation. With those soul-consuming responsibilities, I even felt a little anticlimactic. I was completely focused on meeting all of my tiny baby's needs, which is a 24-hour job. I had forgotten how to enjoy how things were while I was navigating this huge adjustment, trying to work on ideas about how things should be. Fortunately, these feelings are fleeting and usually fade when I hold him and look into his eyes. I suddenly realize I have accomplished something miraculous, and what more could I have asked for? The way he looks and smiles at me, loves cuddling, and cries out "Mommy" without even saying one, makes my heart melt. His enticing eyes begged me to hold him, keep him close and safe, keep him warm and fed, and shower him with hugs and kisses. What on earth can compete with this kind of love?



These tiny feet changed my life forever; my world expanded, my heart expanded, and life became more meaningful. He is and always will be my most prized possession.

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